Is this what your really want?

Can you find inspiration in this? 

The biggest thing any star gives up is there sanity. People like; Nick Drake, Jim Morrison, Elvis, Jimi Hendrix, John bottom, Michael Jackson, etc... All give into the temptation of drugs and alcohol in order to become creative. Every single musician that revolutionize music have all been drug addicts. Heres the list 

• Steven Adler, former Guns N’ Roses drummer (near-fatal overdose) [33]
• GG Allin, punk rock singer (deceased) [34]
• Duane Allman, founding member of The Allman Brothers Band and member of Derek and the Dominoes (deceased)
• Gregg Allman, founding member of and lead singer for The Allman Brothers Band [35]
• Brett Anderson, Suede/Tears frontman [36]
• Chet Baker, Jazz trumpeter whose addiction is discussed at length in the biography Deep in a Dream: The Long Night of Chet Baker.[37][38]
• Ginger Baker, drummer for Cream and Blind Faith [39]
• Tommy Bolin, guitarist for Deep Purple (deceased) [40]
• David Bowie, actor and singer [41]
• Ray Charles, so stated in his autobiography Brother Ray: Ray Charles’ Own Story ISBN 0-306-81335-1 (deceased)
• Jimmy Chamberlin, Smashing Pumpkins/Zwan drummer [42]
• Eric Clapton, guitarist and prominent rock-and-roll figure since the mid-1960s [43]
• Kurt Cobain, Nirvana frontman (deceased) [44]
• Brian Cole, bassist and vocalist for The Association (deceased) [45]
• Natalie Cole, singer, according to VH1 Behind The Music
• Darby Crash, founding member of The Germs (deceased) [46]
• David Crosby, founding member of Crosby, Stills, and Nash/Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young [47]
• Robbin Crosby, Ratt lead guitarist (deceased) [48]
• Miles Davis, jazz trumpeter and bandleader (deceased) [49]
• Pete Doherty, frontman of the bands The Libertines and Babyshambles [50]
• Steve Earle, country-western singer and guitarist [51]
• Howie Epstein, bassist for Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers (deceased) [52]
• Pete Farndon, Pretenders bassist (deceased) [53]
• John Frusciante, former and current Red Hot Chili Peppers guitarist; also has a side solo career [54]
• Dave Gahan, frontman for Depeche Mode (near-fatal overdose)[55]
• Jerry Garcia, Grateful Dead frontman and guitarist (deceased)[56]
• Leif Garrett, child actor and pop musician popular in the mid-1970s [57]
• Boy George (born George Alan O’Dowd), former Culture Club frontman [58]
• Keith Godchaux, keyboardist for The Grateful Dead (deceased)
• Carlos Gomes, Brazilian romantic composer (deceased) [59]
• Brett Gurewitz, Bad Religion guitarist and founder of Epitaph Records
• Hampton Hawes, jazz pianist who self-described as such, after cleaning up, in his autobiography.[60]
• Billie Holiday, jazz singer (deceased) [61]
• Shannon Hoon, Blind Melon frontman (deceased) [62]
• Janis Joplin, singer (deceased) [63]
• Alain Jourgensen, Ministry/Revolting Cocks frontman and renowned addict to several different drugs [64]
• John Kahn, bass player, Jerry Garcia Band (deceased)
• Anthony Kiedis, Red Hot Chili Peppers vocalist [65]
• Mark Lanegan, Screaming Trees frontman [66]
• Tommy Lee, drummer for Mötley Crüe [67]
• Courtney Love, rock musician and actress, according to BBC‘s 2006 documentary “The Return of Courtney Love”
• Frankie Lymon, The Teenagers frontman (deceased) [68]
• Phil Lynott, frontman for Thin Lizzy (deceased) [69]
• Jimmy McCulloch, Wings guitarist (deceased) [70]
• Vaughn Meader, bluegrass musician and comedian (deceased) [71]
• Dave Mustaine, Megadeth frontman [72]
• Brent Mydland, keyboardist for The Grateful Dead (deceased)
• Dave Navarro, guitarist for Jane’s Addiction and later the Red Hot Chili Peppers
• Fats Navarro, jazz trumpeter.[73]
• Chuck Negron, Three Dog Night frontman, battled addiction to heroin for over 30 years [74]
• Fred Neil, famed blues/jazzman (deceased) [75]
• Nico, 1960s-70s singer with several bands, most remembered for her work with The Velvet Underground (deceased) [76]
• Bradley Nowell, Sublime frontman (deceased) [77]
• Anita O’Day, jazz singer [78]
• Jimmy Page, lead guitarist for Led Zeppelin and later for Page and Plant [79]
• Charlie Parker, jazz saxophonist (deceased) [80][81]
• Art Pepper, jazz musician (deceased)
• Joe Perry, lead guitarist for Aerosmith [82]
• John Phillips, The Mamas & The Papas frontman (deceased) [83]
• Iggy Pop, Iggy and the Stooges frontman; also had a successful solo career, and is considered by many to be the prototypical punk rocker [84]
• Elvis Presley, singer and guitarist, addicted to Dilaudid during his later years (deceased) [85]
• Dee Dee Ramone (born Douglas Glen Colvin), Ramones bassist (deceased) [86]
• Lou Reed, frontman and guitarist for The Velvet Underground, later a successful solo artist [87]
• Trent Reznor, Nine Inch Nails frontman/conceptualizer [88]
• Keith Richards, The Rolling Stones lead guitarist, renowned multi-addict [89]
• Axl Rose, Guns N’ Roses frontman [90]
• Andy Rourke, The Smiths bassist, fired briefly due to addiction [91]
• Judee Sill, addicted to heroin before her career, but died of a cocaine overdose.[92]
• Nikki Sixx, Mötley Crüe bassist (near-fatal overdose) [93]
• Slash, former Guns N’ Roses/Slash’s Snakepit/Velvet Revolver guitarist [94]
• Hillel Slovak, Red Hot Chili Peppers guitarist (deceased) [95]
• Layne Staley, Alice In Chains frontman (deceased) [96]
• James Taylor, vocalist and guitarist [97]
• Pete Townshend, frontman and guitarist for The Who [98]
• Steven Tyler, lead singer for Aerosmith [99]
• Sid Vicious, bassist for The Sex Pistols (deceased) [100]
• Charlie Watts, Rolling Stones drummer, for a brief period in the 1980s [101]
• Scott Weiland, Stone Temple Pilots and Velvet Revolver frontman [102]
• Danny Whitten, rock musician from Crazy Horse (deceased) [103]
• Al Wilson, vocalist for Canned Heat [104]
• Johnny Winter, blues musician [105]
• Andrew Wood, Mother Love Bone frontman (deceased) [106]

Even Big names like; Mozart, Beethoven, and Bach. All were " addicted" to ancient medicines such as; cough syrups, absinth, and pain medicine.

For any musician to become a superstar they need good and bad publicity. Drugs and sex is Rock and Roll. And without it... we would have the superstars or the music we have today.